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If I Could Turn Back Time

Chapter One

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Karen

I looked at the front door that had just been slammed shut by Chris. I rubbed my stomach as tears fell down my cheeks. Our fighting had been escalating instead of cooling down as I got further along with the pregnancy. I didn't know how to stop it. We had been having problems even before I got pregnant. Too much work for the both of us had been taking it's toll. At first he had seemed happy that I was pregnant but it seemed to have changed as every week went by. I was
hurt and confused and whenever I tried to talk to him about it it was always the yelling and the slamming of the door and the screetching of tires as he left the driveway.

Jordan was spending the weekend at a friends house so I went upstairs and got dressed and went to GH and to the lab to get my mind off of the situation. I was leaning over a microscope and petrie dish when my door opened.

Joe: "Hi Karen."

I swiveled around and looked at him.

Karen: "Hey Joe, what's up?"

Joe: "You and Chris fighting again?"

Karen: "Why do you ask?"

Joe: "No one can get near him, you are almost six months pregnant and you are here at the lab at close to 10pm. Two reasons to know something is up. Are you okay?"

Karen: "I'm fine Joe. I don't know what's going on between Chris & I. I can't talk to him anymore."

Joe: "He's not talking to anyone, not even Eve."

Karen: "I know I talked to her the other day. She said she's tried but he just won't open up to her. I wish I knew what I did." As the tears fell.

I went over to her and gave her a hug. I held her till she was done crying.
Joe: "Karen it's nothing that you did sweetie. Something is going on with Ramsey something that no one but Chris can understand."

Karen: "I love him so much, I don't want to lose him."

Joe: "Give him some space and time and I'm sure he'll come around cause he loves you very much Karen."

Karen: "Thanks Joe."

Joe: "Anytime Karen. I better get back downstairs. Go home, get some rest and sleep."

I nodded and saw him out. I hadn't known what sleep or rest was since this with Chris had started. I bent over my microscope again. An hour later I stretched and rubbed my neck. I heard the door open again.

Chris: "What in the hell are you doing here?"

I jumped at his tone.
Karen: "Working Chris."

Chris: "You should be home in bed."

Karen: "Will you come home with me, please?"

Chris: "Why? Just so you can nag me and keep asking me all sorts of questions?"

Karen: "I just want to know what's wrong so I can fix it. What have I done wrong Chris?"

Chris: "You won't leave me alone when I say I want to be left alone."

Karen: "Is it the baby? Are you angry that I'm pregnant?"

Chris: I went to the door. "Maybe." I opened it and then closed it leaving her alone.

I put my hand on my stomach and cried. I couldn't believe he said such a thing to me. He loved Jordan so much, he loved kids. Why was this child I was carrying different?

Things had gotten better between Chris and I we finally were able to talk about things and
straightened everything out. He promised me he wanted the new baby and we both went baby shopping together having a great time together getting things for our son or daughter.

I had made us a big dinner with all of his favorite fixings and even his favorite dessert. I went and changed into one of my nice maternity outfits and waited for him to come home. I waited. I waited. Dinner was now an hour and a half cold. Still no Chris. He came in at 8.

Chris: "Hi baby."

Karen: "Hi." I said softly.

Chris: "What's the matter Karen?"

Karen: "We were supposed to have a nice romantic dinner tonight."

Chris: "Sorry, forgot." I headed up the stairs to shower.

Anger burned through me. I went up the stairs and waited till he was back into the bedroom.

Karen: "Why didn't you at least call?"

Chris: "Forgot to."

Karen: "You forgot to?"

Chris: "Yeah, that's what I said."

Karen: "I made your favorite dinner and dessert Chris!"

Chris: "Thanks."

Karen: "You bastard!"

Chris: "I'm a bastard, what about you...you slut."

I felt as if I had been hit by a bus.

Karen: "What did you call me?"

Chris: "You heard me. You want to know the real reason why I don't want that kid growing inside of you?"

I just stared at him in disbelief.

Chris: "Cause it's not mine, it's Joe's."

Karen: "What? Are you crazy?"

I grabbed her and shook her

Chris: "Don't you ever say that to me again! Do you hear me?"

Karen: "Chris you are hurting me." He let me go. "It's not Joe's! The timing is all wrong."

Chris: "You slept with him when I was at that conference in Miami - that fits the timing."

Karen: "I have never cheated on you, never!"

Chris: "Yeah right."

I walked over to him and slapped him hard across the face. He lifted his head and looked at me. I gasped as I saw the look in his eyes. I started backing away from him.

Karen: "I'm sorry Chris...I..I didn't mean to hit you." He started towards me and I kept backing up. He stopped but I kept backing up.

Chris: "KAREN!"

I heard him scream out my name, but it was too late. I lost my footing and fell tumbling down the stairs. Blackness over took me and I knew no more.

Chris

Why did things have to be so difficult? Why wasn't she the woman that I thought she was? Damn her for lying to me. I had loved her with my entire being and she had betrayed me. Why did I ever think she could be faithful to me? I went to the hospital and did some paper work. I hated having to leave my own house, but damn her for doing this to me. Seeing her grow with another man's child ripped my life away from me. All I could think about what how badly I wished the kid was mine, how badly I wished that I had paid more attention to her, how disappointed I was in our marriage.

Eve walked into my office and looked at me as if she were wondering what the hell was wrong.

Chris: "Stop hovering Eve. Say what's on your mind, then get out of my office."

Eve: "Chris, what is wrong with you? Why are you being this way?"

Chris: "Okay, that's it. Get out!" I said walking over to her and pushing her out the door, closing the door behind her and locking it.

I finished up my paperwork and walked down the hall to the lab. I stepped inside and saw Karen there. What was she? Insane?

Chris: "What in the hell are you doing here?" My anger was boiling. How could she care this little about her own child, even if it wasn't mine?

Karen: "Working Chris."

Chris: "You should be home in bed."

Karen: "Will you come home with me, please?"

Chris: How could she even ask me that?? Why would I want to lie in bed beside a woman that had betrayed me and carried the consequences around with her for all to see? "Why? Just so you can nag me and keep asking me all sorts of questions?"

Karen: "I just want to know what's wrong so I can fix it. What have I done wrong Chris?"

Chris: "You won't leave me alone when I say I want to be left alone."

Karen: "Is it the baby? Are you angry that I'm pregnant?"

Chris: I went to the door. "Maybe." I opened it and then closed it leaving her alone.

I stood beside the door and closed my eyes. How could she be so nonchalant about this, about betraying me? About carrying another man's child?

I decided that things couldn't possibly be worse. I did have one child with Karen, and that had to be worth something. What could dinner hurt?

I went to the hospital and worked for a while. I watched Joe walk across the lobby and he stopped when he saw me. Damn him for destroying my marriage. He walked over to me.

Chris: "What do you want, Scanlon?"

Joe: "You don't know when you have it so good, do you Ramsey?"

Chris: "Oh, how do you figure?" I asked sarcastically, wanting to know just how much he thought of my marriage.

Joe: "Karen is a great woman and you're just throwing her away. My god, man, she's pregnant."

Chris: "Yeah, you've known about that for a long time, haven't you Joe? Longer than I have even."

Joe: "What the hell are you talking about?"

Chris: "You know damn well what I'm talking about."

Joe: "No, I really don't. She's your wife."

Chris: "And your lover. So tell me, Joe, what was it like sleeping with my wife? Was it just like the old days when you two were together?"

Joe: "Are you insane, Ramsey? I haven't touched Karen."

Chris: "I know better."

Joe: "Whatever, Ramsey. You don't know what you're talking about and you don't know what you're doing to your wife. You're ruining the best thing that ever happened to you."

Joe walked away and I wanted to go after him and beat him within an inch of his life. I looked at my watch. 6:00. Time for a drink. I left the hospital and went to the Recovery Room to get a martini. After I had a few drinks, I called a cab to take me home. I walked into the house and saw Karen as she stood inside the door.

Chris: "Hi baby."

Karen: "Hi."

Chris: "What's the matter Karen?"

Karen: "We were supposed to have a nice romantic dinner tonight."

Chris: "Sorry, forgot."

Karen: "Why didn't you at least call?"

Chris: "Forgot to."

Karen: "You forgot to?"

Chris: "Yeah, that's what I said." I was fuming. Why was she acting this way? Gees, all I'd done was miss one dinner. She had slept with another man.

Karen: "I made your favorite dinner and dessert Chris!"

Chris: "Thanks."

Karen: "You bastard!"

Chris: "I'm a bastard, what about you...you slut." I almost regretted saying it, but damn her, she had screwed me over and I wasn't taking it anymore.

Karen: "What did you call me?"

Chris: "You heard me. You want to know the real reason why I don't want that kid growing inside of you? Cause it's not mine, it's Joe's."

Karen: "What? Are you crazy?"

I don't know what came over me. I grabbed her and drug her to me shaking her.

Chris: "Don't you ever say that to me again! Do you hear me?"

Karen: "Chris you are hurting me."

I let her go as I finally realized what I was doing.

Karen: "It's not Joe's! The timing is all wrong."

Chris: "You slept with him when I was at that conference in Miami - that fits the timing."

Karen: "I have never cheated on you, never!"

Chris: "Yeah right."

She slapped me hard. I saw double for a minute before lifting my eyes back to meet her. She was scared. Damn her, she should be. After what she'd done to me and she had the guts to moralize. How dare her. I started walking towards her as she backed away.

Karen: "I'm sorry Chris...I..I didn't mean to hit you."

She just kept backing up. Further and further. Didn't she see the stairs? Didn't she realize how close she was?

Chris: "Karen, KAREN!" I said trying to reach out to her, trying to stop her from falling. "KAREN!"

I saw her tumble down the stairs and I felt as if my heart had shattered. I felt cold inside as I saw her land at the foot of the stairs, unconscious.

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